quixotic_sublickr

I have been curious about, interested in and turned on by spanking for as long as I can remember. I don't quite understand when spanking became interwoven into my sexuality buy I know that my passion about it predates my adolescence. There are a few women that I grew up with who will gladly laugh and share that I was the horny little boy who was always volunteering to be the spanker or the spankee whenever spanking entered our play. I am the oldest of four and was raised by a single Mom from the time I was six. I had a younger, disabled brother and two younger sisters. My relationship with my Mother was complicated. She was a "functional alcoholic" who was reasonably strict when sober but she was an angry drunk, as the oldest, I was the most frequent target of her liberal belt use when drunk and angry. Besides the emotional/physical abuse she began sexually abusing me when I was about seven. Several times a week, including almost every Friday and Saturday night that I was home( I didn't then and still don't feel turned on by those memories.)